Tuesday, December 16, 2008

okay, so I am homeless

There's something heart breaking about hearing your best friend of forever scream at you at the top of her lungs, "Get the fuck outta my house!!" When it's our house and it's been our house for several months.

I refused to pay rent for December, for obvious reasons. I told her this last Friday, but I guess she misunderstood. I was shocked that anyone paid rent, and felt sorry for those who did. Our house is condemned. The landlord terminated the lease because the house will not be inhabitable until March. He gave us 30 days to get out.

Tell me, am I being ridiculous for refusing to pay rent? I don't think so. There's a big sign on the plastic door with a biohazard symbol that says "WARNING: DO NOT ENTER." It's fucking condemned.

I furiously grabbed some things, just enough for a day and my space heater.

I was so angry when I was arguing with Adrienne. I left hysterical--bawling and crying like I had just been dumped. I've never felt so weak and so alone. I don't have a support system here aside from my roommates, so I did the stupidest thing I could do. I called a guy I've been seeing. This guy is great, I really like him, but I feel that we're not exactly on the same page. I feel like I'm smothering him for it being a new relationship. We're not a couple. But I called him like we were. I was crying and told him the situation. He calmed me down and I felt better, but I acted like a small child in the woods who comes upon a wild animal and runs toward it screaming and clapping. Now I fear that I won't hear from him again. I just clapped too hard.

I drove to my friends Alex and Jameson. I called first and asked to crash on their couch. When I got there, I was still visibly upset and we proceeded to get drunk off--you guessed it--Jameson whiskey. They started watching a dvd and I fell asleep. I woke up at about 5 freezing (they don't have heat). I lied there for a while weeping. I was thinking about all the shit on my plate. I hate eating shit, but sometimes shit happens. I returned all the Christmas gifts I purchased. I just don't know how I'm going to come up with some money to move into a new place.

This blog is for venting purposes, too.


Cat said...

Oh god, I am so sorry! What a clusterfuck. If you drive to MN you can live with me. It's not too bad, we've warmed up to 4 below zero already today! So sorry for the bad turn of luck, so unfair and a really bad time of year for this.

Anonymous said...

I am sorry you are getting screwed and not in a good way. What about some of the other roommates that are now homeless too? Can you guy pool your money and rent an apartment? If there was something I could do to help, I would be happy too.

Ms. Pants said...

I have no idea how I got here (clicky clicky click) but I totally feel for you. And no, you should definitely not pay rent for a house that is inhabitable. Your landlord might try to keep your deposit, however. You can probably take that to small claims court, should your s/he press on it. (Judges are notorious for hating landlords.)

I'm hoping, of course, that your landlord is not Adrienne and I really hope I didn't spell her name wrong.

Should you decide to high tail it to Houston, TX, I'll put you up for a while. I might ask what the hell you came to Houston for, but I'll do it with alcohol and kitties.

C.S. Perry said...

I wish I had some extra cash to send.
It's times like this when the Real Lines get drawn and you find out who your true friends really are.

Best of Luck.

Jonathan said...

Perhaps this link will help. it says what should happen when there is a condemnation of an apartment. basically everyone should get their deposit and prepaid rent back. you definitely should not be PAYING more rent. Perhaps you can use this to get everyone's money back.